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The feeling of inadequacy permeates me,
sets me apart from anyone else
Makes my actions tainted.
I have made a lot of mistakes in my life
I remember everyone of them.
I regret all of them
As a constant reminder of my failures, they haunt me.
Tear me apart and put me back together
Everyday I am a little bit different inside.
You are, by far, my greatest regret.
I regret not being there for you
I regret not being what you wanted me to be, whole.
I've got fragments of you puncturing my soul
It bleeds, it floods my entire being with your life.
I cannot separate. I cannot erase. I cannot live like this.
This is a desperate act to a desperate mind.
Tired of living and incomplete life
Knowing that you are someone else's wife.
sets me apart from anyone else
Makes my actions tainted.
I have made a lot of mistakes in my life
I remember everyone of them.
I regret all of them
As a constant reminder of my failures, they haunt me.
Tear me apart and put me back together
Everyday I am a little bit different inside.
You are, by far, my greatest regret.
I regret not being there for you
I regret not being what you wanted me to be, whole.
I've got fragments of you puncturing my soul
It bleeds, it floods my entire being with your life.
I cannot separate. I cannot erase. I cannot live like this.
This is a desperate act to a desperate mind.
Tired of living and incomplete life
Knowing that you are someone else's wife.
and God gave me a dog
God gave me a dog
to teach me about my humanity
To keep me away from my hypocrisies
to make me less mundane
It is small and frail
walking around aimlessly
Following me tirelessly
its sweetness will always prevail
Growing up together
Lessons nobody else could teach you
Tearing away my blue
Don't go away, don't go away
Be always here with me
my heart won't ever set you free
Why must I let you go?
To heavens above
I won't forget you
or the lessons you taught me out in the blue.
God gave me, the Devil gave me
Miles and miles away ... Where do I go?
Where can I hide?
God gave me you, the Devil gave me traveling shoe
God gave me the wanderer's eye
The Devil a few gold coins .. to take me away from your side.
God gave you hunger
The Devil gave my compliance.
God gave you looks
The Devil take you away from me (gave to him)
God gave me a prison
The Devil opened up the door
God made me surrender
The Devil gifted me beggars' eyes.
Am I Home?
Miles and miles away ... Where do I go?
Where can I hide?
So The Devil gave me travelling shoes,
Gave me one last reprieve.
He then gave you hunger,
To deny me the air to breath.
The Devil gave me
Number one at the end of the bar
...and then there was sadness
fueled by rage
and a profound silence.
...words written down on a computer screen.
fueled by love
and a profound silence.
I drive away through empty streets
looking for consolation at the bottom of a bottle.
For I dreamed the impossible dream, over a wireless network
Faces I have never seen
Places I have never been
Numbers on the bottom of a page inflate ones ego.
Promises can be bought so very cheap…
…after a couple of lines exchanged … they soon dissolve to bytes in a sea.
…and I'm back in the twilight again, among famous strangers. Back at the bottom of the bottles as the
Starless nights
Starless nights
I never had a wish granted
Nor a blessing beneath the vine
A seed of love so carefully planted
Never gave no love entwined.
I walk alone this deserted path
Knowingly hazed by its demise
I seek love in the face of wrath
I see only pain in desguise.
Starless nights so weak and weary
Put be back where I belong
Love's painful, ungreatful and leery
Your eyes, like stars
Fail to guide me
I have no hope, only scars.
© 2014 - 2024 mfleury75
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I used to think they were profound what you wrote , talking about the struggles we all go through, but since I find this is ALL about some lame chick that left you for some other guy....I can't read it with the same kind of admiration I once did.
To beat yourself and flagellate yourself to the point of wanting to die over some woman that you idolize and yet that other guy is already getting tired of her, amazes me you'd do that with your brain power.
NO ONE is expendable and is only meant for one person. We have a million "one person's" for all of us and as good or better than the last, but sometimes inside us lies this little corner of the brain that thinks to us....
I deserve this....I need this pain.....I am the victim and will play that roll out.....I need to be beaten and suffer....instead of saying what stable people say and that's this.....
I love what we had, and it was gift to me even for that short time we had it, and yet it wasn't meant to be. There is surely another perfectly suited good one out there waiting to meet me. I must pick myself up and clean myself off, and give that new perso something to be attracted to when she comes by.
NO MATTER how much YOU suffer.....none of that will do a thing to bring her back my friend. all the best.
To beat yourself and flagellate yourself to the point of wanting to die over some woman that you idolize and yet that other guy is already getting tired of her, amazes me you'd do that with your brain power.
NO ONE is expendable and is only meant for one person. We have a million "one person's" for all of us and as good or better than the last, but sometimes inside us lies this little corner of the brain that thinks to us....
I deserve this....I need this pain.....I am the victim and will play that roll out.....I need to be beaten and suffer....instead of saying what stable people say and that's this.....
I love what we had, and it was gift to me even for that short time we had it, and yet it wasn't meant to be. There is surely another perfectly suited good one out there waiting to meet me. I must pick myself up and clean myself off, and give that new perso something to be attracted to when she comes by.
NO MATTER how much YOU suffer.....none of that will do a thing to bring her back my friend. all the best.